KRYSTiN<3

what a year..

Wed, 05 Jan 2005 21:43:25 GMT

hey hey hey!!! I havent wrote in a while..but I think Im gonna re-cap my year just like my lovely boyfriend did cuz...well it looks like some hot kickass fancy shit :-)

2004...what a fucked year

January- Started off with chyllen with the old boyfriend Dave and watching finding nemo and having a sleepover with holly...smokin up of course...(those were the days!)
Many of shows at thy sad cafe..and I started chyllen with sandy..holly's party was some good fun in january..I do belive in was jan.10th had some sleepovers with the old crew and what not..that month wasnt that kickass..

Feburary-Did alot of hanging out with dave and jon smoking about every fuckin day noww...did my lifeguard training..bullshit if you ask me..Ahh yes and then Feb12th one of the coldest days of the year..and me and dave break into grandma's home to...well...ya kno..ha ha.. Valentine's Day was such a fuckin waste of day last year..dave got me nothing...nothing at all..it was stupid..lots of yelling at eachother that day..go figure...valentine's day was our 3 month shit..and I still got nothing..lots of sexin' it up in feb.

March-ah yes started going tanning in march..me holly and jackie...darker than the fuckin spics at school ha ha ha..I should start going again ha ha ha..smoking...i dunno march was nothing special

April-My auntie Mary-Anne died of lung cancer...so all the funerals and shit..Then the best thing EVER! I went and saw Cold and Sevendust at the Hampton Beach Casino..very fancy.. and it was fuckin awesome..def. rockin me lol...I got to meet MY scooter ward :-) and the rest of the band..chyllen with sevendust..in their fuckin limo..and the guy who owns spiderbite radio..thennn..I went to Florida..that was cool...and me and holly had a hell of a time...until I got food poisoning..yucky!It was all good though
April's outcome..the best

May-MCAS testing at school...I was very very stressed..It was 6 months for me and dave...um...still smoking every day..I dunno nothing special there

June-Me and Dave fighting like 24/7 and still fucking around with eachother like constantly..thennnn...June 27th me and dave broke up..god..there was so much drama...then we talked..we started going back out..very gay I dumped him on the 30th

July-very depressing month..I was like lonely..and i developed a small eating disorder or something..i dunno..I lost weight..alot of it..quickly..and then i went on vacation with holly..and I was gonna hook up with her cousin Richie..we had some good times up in the pool house if I do sayso myself..but that failed...Then i started talking to this kid Evin..that didnt really go anywhere though..and were just friends...and thats how its only gonna be..i was still really not over dave yet. Hung out with sandy alotta lott and I went to go see Drowning pool..another kickass concert..ah yes..started hanging out with my scooter bear and santa roman every day

August- still lonely..chylled with santa and scooter..hmmm..started talking to this kid steve...I dont even know how either..he just kinda came outta no wheres.. Then was my surprise 16th birthday..boy was that one hell of a fuckin day..wake up go to work at 7...break out in hives..take benydryl..get picked up by my boyfriend steve..tired as all hell..go to the mall and wal-mart then come hhome and massive ppl are at my house partying..thats when wes comes about

September-Started chyllen with wes and hanging out with him and talking..09*16*04 we start going out..well after we dumped our pplz of course

October-not much happened Wes :-)

Novemeber Turkey day :-) and wes :-)

December- Christmas Hanukkuah..Wes..ended it off with one hell of a bang ha ha

Kristen & Westley

09*16*04

At my scooter bear's home!

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 03:43:59 GMT

ahhh!!! Im at my scooter bears home..were having sucha grand ole' time....we made a small attempt at downloading music to make our lives a tad but more exciting...but yet we failed..and yet again..we are wishing for summer..god I fucking hate winter..its so blah...and stickly..cuz all the leaves fall off the trees and the world has bcome a giant stick. ugh..I wan pool hop, and eat chaos pizza, and go to the beach, and stay out all night,and concerts, and chyll at grandmas home, and and and..NO SCHOOL! And this summer me and my scooter will be able to DRIVE! yes!

I really gotta stop thinking about summer..bfore I get all sad again..

Work..another bore of the day..all the retards were working and I was on the shitty registar, ugh..I saw Rikki though and I talked to her for a bit bfore she disapated.

School..well on shop week I dont even like go to school..so that was a waste of words..Nursing home..boring..I finished everything s000 early and I was just all like dUhhhh cuzz there was nothing to do.

I cant wait till Christmas!! yeS!

SHIT FUCK SHIT! Wes was supposed to call me when he got home from work...which was like...40 minutes ag000..whoopsie..o well..Ill just call him when I get home and be all like I was with my scooter bear :-)

Alright I really have nothing to say really so Im out niGGaZ

09*16*04

UgHhHh!

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 18:54:49 GMT

omg..I am so000ooo pissed off...

I hate school
I hate people
I hate shit-talkers
I hate stupid freshman/sophmores
I hate Market Basket
I hate people who work at Market Basket
I hate my house
I hate library's
I hate school lunch
I hate heart pain
I hate Wednesdays
I hate stupid people
I hate stupid hand sanitizer smells
I hate my glasses
I hate my braces
I hate fatness
I hate fat people
I hate annoying things
I hate ugh..I dont even know..I am seriously just so fed up with everything...I am this close to putting my fist through this computer screen..wait..you cant see me so you cant see how close I am ha ha
ugh..people really piss me off so0o0o much..Im telling you people do it on purpose too..I just wanna go home..and kill myself..:-) ::smiles to self:: ha ha oh HappiTy DaY!

I love Westley 09*16*04....yeaAAaa..hmMmm..thinks to self..

I will attack you...

In school..at the library..once more..

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 17:07:25 GMT

ugh..sch00l stinkS!

I just like finished one quarter of my 2nd quarter junior project...terrible... I am so000ooo sick of projects! I have so many I gots to do0o0o...and I am def. way 2 lazie..

err..I wanna see Wes.. I dont know if he's even in sch00l today...I was waiting for him this morning but he never showed up in the caf. and then I was talking to holly about an hour ago and she said she saw him somewheres..so i dont knoW..

Tommorrow's gonna be *3 Months* yes!!! And I dont have to work after school tommorrow and neither does he so0o0o...I think were gonna chyll! yay! Wow..three months..that went by really really fast...School seems to speed months up quicker..Its an odd concept.

I gots to work today 3-6..the shittiest shift...espically on weekdays..it will go by quick but at the same time your so anxious to go home..

Yupp..so I am gonna go..cuz I wanna finish more of my project. Not that I want to..but Im kinda obligated..sucky sucky sucky...

PeAcE~
I love Wes! 09*16*04..*Three Months Tommorrow*

Happity Hanukkah!!!!

Sat, 11 Dec 2004 01:47:38 GMT

fun fun fun... Im sittin in Rikki's room..(with her of course!) and updating the one and only l/j!

Me and her are having a grand ole' time celebrating Hanukkah! lol.. I watched her and her mom light the candles and sing the cute song :-)awww..i love Hanukkah and we ate yummy jewish food. yummy!!! :-) and her mom is ever so cute! I love her to death! She kinda reminds me of my mom..lol..cuz there both little. and me and rikki both take after our moms on that one ha ha ha...

Sch00l...boring as ever and ever....I figured out today in one of my classes that we have 18 months till graduation..(including summer) Then we will be out in the "real world" ::scary:: and then to college... dreading the homework for that ha ha

I actully had a really good day..it was good..I was all happy! and I dunno..I was like overly nice to the ppl at market bucket ha ha... and I was conversating more than usual..lol..

Got some good notes from the boyfriend..ever so cute...and I learned what a "tuna melt" was..yucky!!!...that was a bit too detailed and disturbing for my perverted taste ha ha ha...I still need to find a thing to call my boyfriend instead of "boyfriend" all the time...ha ha..my poor baby...he's un-named...ha ha

HanukkaH!!! yes this is seriously my new fave holiday...screw christmas... ha ha..Rikki's gots to come over to my home for holiday and she can see how screwed my family is ha ha ha ha...I would take her to my family christmas par-tay..but no0o0o she's with her ethan character..ha ha mr.frog boy..ha ha...

I was suprised when I came to jewish girls home..she has a very good tatse in music..I thought she was all like..kelly clarkson or something..ha ha..but I found a liking in her playlist. nice nice..good job rikki!

I feel like an idiot..I hate to admit it..but I cheeseballed on rikki's comp...I feel like a nerd..suicide needs to happen now!!!! omg..that was so embarrassing kinda bogus too..:-(
Now me and her have officially gone in clincally insane...inside jokes live onNNN

YupperS my wes...is chyllen with the "guys" I believe...I hope..ha ha..he's probably out cheating me according to that anymous caller not to long ago000 ha ha ha.. no0o0 I think he said he was hanging out with ricky and chabot or jj or someone..idk..I cant remeber u know me I cant even remember what I did like an hour ago0o0..sad sad..

Alrightyyyy..Im out~*
~*pEaCe*~
P.S.
I love Westley Alexander Jordan (hee-hee I said his full name :-))
09*16*04 awww..almost 3 monthers! next week...:-)

another survey

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 22:56:38 GMT

The \\
Last Cigarette: Summer
Last Alcoholic Drink: A couple weeks ago
Last Car Ride: yesterday
Last Kiss: 1 second ago
Last Good Cry: Tuesday.
Last Library Book: Catcher in the Rye
Last book bought: Naked Lunch
Last Book Read: Catcher in the Rye
Last Movie Seen in Theatres: Spongebob movie
Last Movie Rented: Dawn of the Dead.
Last Cuss Word Uttered: "shit"
Last Beverage Drank: Cranberry juice
Last Food Consumed: chicken, cheese, bread, mustard
Last Crush: the person Im with now...DUH! 09*16*04
Last Phone Call: Holly
Last TV Show Watched: something to do with geeks and sex on VH1
Last Time Showered: Last night
Last Shoes Worn: pink fuzzy slippers
Last CD Played: The Green Mix Vol.2-"And the green lives on.."
Last Item Bought: Lunch at school..
Last Download: yesterday i updated my AIM
Last Annoyance: school
Last Disappointment: pain killers wearing off
Last Soda Drank: Mountain Dew Pitch Black
Last Thing Written: what?!
Last Key Used: !
Last Words Spoken: "what?!"
Last Sleep: in anatomy class....watching the movie on the Circulatory System
Last Ice Cream Eaten: Im not to fond of ice cream..really..
Last Chair Sat In: westley
Last Webpage Visited: live journal...and suicide hotline web pages

The Hospital story

Wed, 08 Dec 2004 17:36:26 GMT

wow..that was a very eventful night..shit...

yea..lets see where to start..

ok..last night after I gots offline from writing in this shit...I was with my kickass westley and we went upstairs...and holy shit..I got the most terrible pain..I have like ever felt...in my heart...it fuckin sucked..I started crying and all that jazz and my dad called my mom to see when she was coming home so she can bring me to the hospital. That was an adventure..

We drove in the pouring ice rain..all the way to Holy Family hospital in Methuen. And we went to the E.R and we went in and sat down..believe it or not..there was so many ppl there...and for a Tuesday night..shit..So we waited and the nurse called me in..to ask whats wrong and all that fun stuffers..omg that nurse was so fuckin rude..I wanted to punch her in the face. She was talking to me like I was fuckin 5 years old. And she kept breaking down all these medical terms. And I told her I knew what she was talking about cuz I do nursing. She looked at me like I was dumb and kept being stupid. Then they sent us back to the waiting area. Tons of people came and went. And they were calling in so many people with the tiniset problems even before me who had something wrong with the heart thing. I know that sounds a little selfish but usually in the E.R rooms they take people with serious internal problems first.. People came and went, I saw people leave with handcuffs, people throwing up, coughing up blood, little kids that had fevers sky high. All that good stuff. Then there was 2 traumas and we waited even longer. I sat in the waiting room from about 5:30pm to about 9-9:30.

It was so sad this kid he had to be about nine came in with his mother and I guess he hit his head and he went blind and couldnt see anything...he kept trying to fall asleep and shit..I heard the doctors talking when they eventully brought me to my room that he was being air-lifted to Boston Children's.

So0o0o..now Im in the hospital room away from the sick waiting room..sitting there doing nothing. There was two older woman in the room with me..one with a heart problem, the other well I dont know..and they were both being admitted and waiting for rooms upstairs. They were there since like 10:00 in the morning. i felt really bad. So Im waiting and waiting and finally someone comes in and takes my blood. Fuckin spanish lady hurt me. She like took the needle and jammed it into my fuckin arm. She was so rough..Talk about inflicting pain..

Then an another nurse came in and hooked me up to an EKG machine. While im being hooked up another person comes in to take me so I can get a chestX-Ray. After all that I sat and waited and waited...And me and my mom were trying to figure out why they arent putting me in the pediatric unit. Cuz Im a kid and all..Instead they put these Canadian old people and an Italian lady who bitched about everything in the room with me..The Italian lady was like straight outta Italy had the accent and everything.
She was really nosy and bitchy and she couldnt figure out why they werent helping people right away. And she kept asking me if I eat cuz Im "too skinny". Th Canadian people were really nice. The old guy like fell and fractured ribs.. And he was in alotta pain. And its true..Canadians do have beady eyes and flappy faces. ha ha ha

So moving on..we sat and waited..and I had only that little paper clothing on that they make you wear I was freezing and I had little sticky black things all over my chest that they wouldnt let me take off. I tried falling asleep cuz I was so0o0o tired..but I slept for about a half and hour cuz the Italian lady was really loud and she kept coughing..plus those lights in the rooms are so0o0o bright.

Eventully..the clock hit 1:30 am. And a doctor came in for me and gave me medcine with sleep stuffers in it. And a pain pill. They left again and another doctor came in and checked me out. They told my mom that my bloodwork was good, and my EKG came out "basically normal" and they didnt even say anything about the X-Ray. So0o0 they wrote me a pescription for 2 medcines. One for pain and the other one..for well it makes me tired. And we left..Its about 2:30 in the morning now..

So I went home and too bed..I wonder what happened to Wes..cuz he stayed with my dad when my mom brought me to the hospital. And because my mom and dad were being gay I didnt get to ask dad what happened to the boyfriend..

So now here I am on the computer spilling my story of my hospital visit. And when I go to my cardiologist on the 21st Im going to have to be on a heart moniter and get an Echocardiograph which takes pictures of my heart in full detail. because the E.R couldnt find anything wrong..except..that Im stil in pain..which ya kno is always a great thing!!! (sarcasm all the way)

Peace out..
~*Kristen*~

O JOY..

Tue, 07 Dec 2004 21:13:50 GMT

A day of interesting events:

I went to the old home today..and I made a cute old friend...she's so cute!! But I feel o so bad for her..she's got like nothing..no friends, no family, no belongings..the only thing she owns is a couple stuffed animals, a picture of her and her husband, and a ribbon she won in an art show, and a bible with a flower in it. Thats it..like how sad is that..and her roomate has everything friend family, tons of stuff..people visit her all the time..its sad..so I told my old friend Im going to get her a christmas present and Im going to visit her over the holiday. And I intend to keep that promise.

Im hungary..some food will be good..

Hanukkah starts today :-)
I cant wait till Friday with Rikki!

Im having a good day..its snowy, I made a friend, Hanukkah starts :-), and Im with the cool boyfriend!!
Oh happy day!!!

Im kinda coooolllldddd...brrrr...basements are freezing...

Class tommorrow..fun..I still have homework to complete..fucking class week who needs it..

Peace out niggaZZZ
~Kristen*

I love Westley jordan
09*16*04

survey/third entry today

Sat, 04 Dec 2004 23:28:22 GMT

Your full name: Kristen Marie Porter
Age: 16
Height: 5"
Natural hair color: Brown
Eye color: Green
Number of siblings: none
Glasses/contacts?: yup..but I dont wear them
Piercings: Yes..my ears
Tattoos: Nope
Braces: Yea I have braces

FAVORITE
Color(s): Pink,Blue, black...GREEN!
Band(s): Cold, Metallica, Tool, A Perfect circle, Mudvayne, Shinedown, and other shit
Song(s): "Rain Song"-Cold
Stuffed animal: Too Many
Video game: Tony Hawk Pro-Skater 3 and 4 the only games Im good at
TV show: Sienfield, Family Guy, too many..
Movie: Titanic, Eurotrip, A walk to remember (shop movie), O brother where ought thou
Book: The Torn Skirt
Food: I love food!
Game on a cell phone: Snake
CD cover: ICP's Carnival of Carnage Cover..there just something about it..that makes me wanna listen to it even though its wicked old school
Flower: Carnations
Scent: Love spell by Victorias secret
Animal: Manatees
Comic book: I havent read a comic book for ages
Cereal: Vanilla Almond
Website: umm..
Cartoon: Spongebob

DO YOU
Play an instrument?: No
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?: Idk
Like to sing?: uh..well..not when ppl are around
Have a job?: Market Basket and I guess Pennacook Place counts
Have a cell phone?: Nope
Like to play sports?: yupp
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Yupp! I love Wes! 09*16*04
Have a crush on someone?: Wait...um let me think...um..
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?: No
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?: I have like a Tv in every room cept the bathroom
Have any special talents/skills?: Im flexible :-)
Excercise daily?: starting in january
Like school?: NO!

CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?: probably not
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?: What type of question is that
Speak any other languages?: I can speak a lil French...and i know a lil Spanglish too
Go a day without food?: yes
Stay up for more than 24 hours?: Ive stayed up for 4 days straight before
Read music, not just tabs?: no
Roll your tongue?: I think so
Eat a whole pizza?: If I was that hungary

HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?: Yes
Cried to get out of trouble?: Yes
Gotten lost in your city?: Unfortunatley
Seen a shooting star?: Yes
Been to any other countries besides the united states?: been to mexico
Had a serious surgery?: No
Stolen something important to someone else?: Why would I do that
Solved a rubiks cube?: no
Gone out in public in your pajamas?: yes
Cried over a girl?: NO!
Cried over a boy?: yes..
Kissed a random stranger?: Yes
Hugged a random stranger?: Yes
Been in a fist fight?: Yes
Been arrested?: No
Done drugs?: YES
Had alcohol?: Me and Jackie and our alchohal addiction
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?: Not Milk but Fruit 2O
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?: who doesnt
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?: No
Swore at your parents?: YES
Been to warped tour?: Fuck the Warped Tour
Kicked a guy where it hurts?: YES
Been in love?: I think so
Been close to love?: Yes
Been to a casino?: Nope
Ran over an animal and killed it?: I never ran over an animal but I saw someone run over a dog once..and my mom ran over a frog one time when I was in the car
Broken a bone?: yupp
Gotten stitches?: yupp
Had a waterballoon fight in winter?: yes
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?: milk is yucky
Made homemade muffins?: yes
Bitten someone?: ha ha I always bite ppl
Been to Disneyland/Disneyworld?: yes
More than 5 times?: no
Been to Niagra Falls?: Nope
Burped in someones face?: yes
Gotten the chicken pox?: yes

WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth: This morning
Went to the bathroom: like 10 minutes ago
Saw a movie in theaters: Spongebob movie with wes and jimmy
Read a book: like yesterday
Had a snow day: Last year
Had a party: umm..my birthday crap
Had a slumber party: my birthday
Made fun of someone: every day and moment
Tripped in front of someone: i trip all the time..i tripped Wes at the movie store
Went to the grocery store: when i worked
Got sick: Sept.
Cursed: FUCK FUCK FUCK

PICK ONE
Fruit/vegetables: Fruit
Black/white: Black
Lights on/lights off: Lights off
TV/movie: Movie
Car/truck: car
Body spray/lotion: spray
Cash/check: Cash
Pillows/blankets: blankey
Paint/charcoal: Paint
Chinese food/mexican food: Chink food
Summer/winter: Summer
Snow/rain: Rain in the summer...
Fog/misty: Fog
Rock/rap: Rock
Meat/vegetarian: Vegetarian
Boy/girl: boys all the way
Chocolate/vanilla: I dont kno
Sprinkles/icing: Icing
Cake/pie: pie
French toast/french fries: French fries
Strawberries/blueberries: Strawberries are more fun
Ocean/swimming pool: Idk!!! i love both
Hugs/kisses: Depends on who their from
Cookies/muffins: both
p33n/bewbz: CoNfuSiOn
Wallet/pocket: pockets in the back of my pants
Window/door: Door
Emo/goth: goths love pain
Pink/purple: Pink
Cat/dog: dog
Long sleeve/short sleeve: Short
Pants/shorts: Shorts
Winter break/spring break: Spring break baby
Spring/autumn: Spring is warm
Clouds/clear sky: Clear sky
Moon/mars: Mars

FRIENDSHIP
How many friends do you have?: who cares
What are their names?: Holly, Jackie, Haley, Val, Vicky, kayla, Jess, jess, Rikki, Lauren Shauna, jamie, Danielle, Wes, Jimmy, Scott, Mike, John Dill, Ricky, Scott, Matt, jeff I dont know...there some other ppl I dont member..lol
Have you ever liked one of your friends?: guy friend..yes
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?: guys
Have you ever lost a friend?: yes
Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?: yes
What's an inside joke between you and a friend?: Jack Mr.Dawson its been a pleasure..How are you..A trench such as this one..Wolf fish..I could go on for ever
Have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend: Yes
Whats the nicest thing youve ever done for a friend?: Punched RJ in the face for holly
Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?: Gave me free weed..Idk lol
Do you miss any of your old friends?: sometimes
What friend have you known the longest?: Jackie
Do you regret anything youve done to a friend?: Yes in middle school..I used to be sooo mean to holly
How often do you spend time with your friends?: Not very often at all
Do any of your friends drive?: Jimmy, Ricky, Jeff, Jamie, Lauren..i think thats all
Has a friend of yours ever died?: No
What's the dumbest thing you've done with a friend?: depends..
What do you think your friends think of you?: Everyone thinks Im crazy..but I cant blame them

LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Have you ever been in love?:Yea
If you have, with who?: Im not telling you
Are you single?: Nooo
Are you in a relationship?: Yup
If so, for how long?: 2 and 1/2 months
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?: yes..unless your ugly..wait noo..cuz then the ugly ppl will hook up
What is your idea of the best date?: Make it fun and spontanteous
What was your first kiss like?: I dont member..
How old were you when you got your first kiss?: I was 9
Do you think love is a load of shit?: No
What's the best experience you've ever had with the opposite sex?: Last Saturday
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?: I'm not single
Have you ever been dumped?: yes..only twice though
Have you ever dumped someone?: yea
What's the most sexual thing you've done with the opposite sex?: do you really wanna kno?

I....
am: cold
want: Wes
need: Wes
crave: Wes
love: Wes
hate: being cold
did: this
feel: cold
miss: Wes
am annoyed by: my computer
am tired of: school and work
will always: Hate the stupid questions

SILLY STUFF
What is your favorite genre of music?: rock
What time is it now?: 10:16 AM
What day is it?: Saturday
When's the last time you called someone?: this morning
How much money do you have right now?: none
Are you hungry?: Im always hunagry
Whatcha doin?: this
Do you like parades?: what?!
Do you like the moon?: who asks that..honeslty
What are you going to do when youre done with this?: do something productive
Isn't cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?: ha ha yea
If you could have any magical power what would it be?: to kill you..wait I could do that now
Have you ever had a picnic?: Yea
Did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young?: YES!
What about sock em boppers?: no..but my cousins did and I played with those

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny?: ppl say i am
pretty?: well..not really
sarcastic?: All the time
lazy?: yes
hyper?: always
friendly?: depends
evil?: yes
smart?: I have potential
strong?: nope
talented?: Not at all
dorky?: I was born dorky ha ha

FOR OR AGAINST
suicide: for
love: For
drunk drivers: Against
war: for
rock music: For
gay marriage: against
school: Against
surveys: depends
killing: For
britney spears: Slut
coffee: Against that shit is addictive
pants: For

WOULD YOU EVER
Sky dive?: Yes
Run away?: Yes
Curse at a teacher?: Yes
Not take a shower for a week?: No!
Ask someone out?: Yes
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?: No
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?: yes
Go scuba diving?: done that
Write a book?: why would I write a book
Become a rockstar?: ok

LAST QUESTIONS
What shampoo do you use?: dove and marine
What kind of computer do you have?: shit
What grade are you in?: 11th
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?: ok
How many posters do you have in your room?: toooooo many...
How many cds do you have?: alotta lott
What time is it now?: 6:30 PM..I stopped doing this for awhile cuz i had to work
Website: What about it?
Cartoon: SPONGEBOB!

ahhhh i hate you

Sat, 04 Dec 2004 23:19:55 GMT

I hate everyone...I hate everyone...

Adam Warren can go fuck himself for calling me a dirty slut

Jimmy is gay for believing everyone else's bullshit..I cant believe him..were such good friends and he's being GGGGGGGAAAAAAYYYYY why would he even think in his whole life that i would do that to him

I need a hug :-(

I want my westley...

but whatever..Im gonna see my santa roman and scooter bear...since I miss them..and Ill have some fun..instead of sitting here in my basement on this stupid box...

im cold..

Everyone can go fuck themselves...Im out BitcheZZZ

havent done this is awhile

Sat, 04 Dec 2004 14:27:07 GMT

wow..its been awhile since Ive been online so i took the liberty of updating this thing..lol

yea..holly's boyfriend mike person is an asshole...just to let everyone know..I IM him to ask hime whats up with him and holly and he like freaks out on me saying that I told holly all this shit...and it was like allt his bullshit stuff that I wouldnt say in like a million years..so obviously..someone has no life and making up some gay stuffers..whatever i dont even wanna get involved in there shit..there all fucked up..kayla..holly..nicole..mike..whoever else is involved with that love affair..its so gayyyyyy!

I think after I do this Im gonna copy and paste the thing that jimmy and wes did..that whole info thing..it looked fun lol...

my 3 days off from work has come to and end..and I must go to work today and deal with fuckin idiots..I think after i get my CNA Im gonna quit MB and go work at the nursing home..its so much better..

I need to get ready for work so peace out bitcheZZ~

I love Westley Alexander Jordan 09*16*04 (almost 3 months!)

Chyllen at the Haleyz humble abode...

Fri, 26 Nov 2004 23:39:56 GMT

wow..Havent wrote in this thingy for a while...

Sittin at Haleys home...listening to mixes we made about an hour ago...there full of some cracked out music!!! Everything from Metallica..Ryan Crabrera...Little Mermaid..80's Power Ballads..Madonna...and Techno Remixes from the Spice Girls...we are some very fucked up pplz..ha ha...

Thanksgiving made me all fat:-(...Wes came over and we stuffed our faces like little starving Ethiopian children from Africa...But I didnt eat the squash because my mom put black spots in it...some sort of "spice" she said...I think it was rat poison...

I saw the Elf movie...the little girls mom was a slut!

According to whom ever called my home this afternoon my boyfriends cheating on me...Odd...Who the fuck does that tho..call someones home and be like..."your boyfriends cheating on you"...who the does that..come on people grow the hellllll uppppp!!!

The Power Ballad came on...YES!!!!!! I love power ballads

"Im the one who wants to be with you...deep inside, I hope you feel it too..."...Wow me and Haley are some very very strange individuals...we have been since the faithful day we met...sorry Im getting all power ballad like from the inspiration pouring off this song...wow...the 80's really sucked...well most of it anyways...ha ha

Meanwhile in Haverhill people are losing there homes..they are being burned down...poor people.. i really feel bad for them..that must suck to have your home burn to nothing..

YES!!! Shinedown came on to the music mix..I love this song!!!...

I miss the boyfriend figure...even tho..I saw him like all day yesterday...but whatever...I'll like call him when I get home and be all like "yo sexy puerto rican boyfriend..how u doing" ha ha...I try to be ghetto but fail while attemping...

Nathan and his little friends are taking the liberty of no one being home and playing football in the living room...with the Rugrats blaring in the background. Thats always cute

Im having a bad hair day...The hair wont go curly or straight..nice...

SPICE GIRLS!!!!!! THE BEST EVER...REMIX!! ::)( GHETTO TALK)(::

Back from dancing to the spice girls techno remix with haley..wow..that really wore me out...we were dancing like black people in nelly video..ha ha...

I wonder if anyone actully reads my rambeling on this thing anymore..okey doeky..Im gonna bizzounceeee niggaZZZZ

~*yeAAA BitcheZZZZ*~
~*K~PO*~ ::ghetto faboulous:: (shoots self in the face)

changing the mood faces

Wed, 17 Nov 2004 16:47:32 GMT

ha ha I changed my mood faces...there so cute!!

School rocks my socks!!! (NOT!)

Wed, 17 Nov 2004 16:39:12 GMT

Hey Hey Hey!!!

Yup school is offcially gay..Shop is dull today were not even going out or anything so were just sitting around like a bunch of friggin idiots doing absoluley nothing!!!!! I missed the bus this morning and my mom was all bitchy about that..so I got a ride to school and shit.. I was late had to get a pass...all that good stuffers...

Gots to work allllll tonight...3:00-9:00 6 hours of Market Basket fun!!! Gotta love it..(KILLS SELF) Get to see my bestest friends ever!!! ha ha ha I need a new job very very soon. I think Market Basket should start a cult because everyone there is a bunch of oddballs anyways lol..Last night was sooooo gay while I was working..These chics Maura and Sarah like hate me with an endying passion cuz Jeff wants to fuck me..yet I have just a friend interest in him..makes sense huh?? And everyone thinks me and Jeff are like "lovers for life!!!" ha ha..Anyways Sarah and Maura were both giving me these shit looks and I guess they talk mad shit about me too...whoop-de-doo..they need to kill themselves..

Wes needs to go back to the doctors!!! I hope he went today cuz..I dont want him to be sick anymore and he needs medicine!

Moving on with life...Im sitting next to this girl from my shop and she doesnt know how to spell poems she spells it all like "pomes" ::Shoots her in the face:: lol...Im so negative about stuff..I always want people to die ha ha...

Yup..i gets to go to third lunch today! Cuz...Im helping the nurse out with the poor kids physicals. I dont even really know anyone at that lunch..guess I'll just have to find some random people..It sucks that so many of my friends are in the other week this year..

Im gonna bizounce cuz I dont really gots anything to say..and my days not even half over yet..so peace out BitchEZZZ

havent wrote in this shit for a long while...

Wed, 17 Nov 2004 01:25:59 GMT

Hey hey hey..

Lets see..anything new with me...
-Work still sucks
-Still with Wes
-Helping the old people
-Still getting yelled at for stupid shit..(gotta love them parentals)
-School ('Nuff said)
Nope life still the same I guess

Todays 2 Months for me and Wes!!! Thats so awesome!!! 2 Whole months..ha ha that sounds funny..it's weird when you go from a really long relationship with someone and just basically start all over again with the flirting, then "talking" and then start going through the whole dating shit..then when you actully "go out" with someone and like start over with the baby months....ha ha

Ya but today is 2 Months..its cute..he's so kickass..even though he's a leecher..ha ha..its ok though cuz Im rough and kinky...ha ha such good times..

I feel so abd for Wes though..he's all sick and such..and it sucks cuz i want him to get better so we can chyll and shit..but nooooo..the doctor likes to mis-diagnosis him..and I kno he has strep throat..but doctors are fuckin stupid..espically doctors that are from haverhill because that means that their from Haverhill schools ha ha..

ya kno this song really reminds me of dave...and like when we broke up..and how he used to make me sick..

"you don't know how sick you make me,you make me fuckin sick to my stomach, everytime I think of you I puke..." -Eminem-"Puke"

Ok im gonna change CD's now...

Man do i love those mixes...

In a slightly better mood..

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 02:12:55 GMT

Today is the most boring day..and it doesnt want to end either..

Had a fun day at the home of the old...messing around with the old people at activities and bringing them to lunch..some old guys were hitting on me and telling me that I was gorgeous..odd..very odd..something that doesnt happen every day..this one old lady saw my claddagh ring and had like a 30 min. convo about being Irish..she had one of those rings on..she had like this big fuckin diamond on hers..I guess she's all Irish and that was her wedding ring or some shit..

Work was the same as always..nothing exciting happening in that department of my life..

Talked to Matt..he IMed me..and we had some conversations..about..anything and everything..well actully no..it was..well..different..It left me in an odd state of confusion...And I wanna talk to my Wes..(yea thats right he's mine lol)

I had a very long conversation with Adam today..and Ive decided that he's not a friggin idiot..well a random friggin idiot lol..He's a cool kid thats gonna chyll with me and Jimmy on saturday afternoon

i got my pictures back from old film..and i found these 3 awesome pictures of me..there so good..And there from the summer..when my hair was first dyed..so it didnt look gay like it does now..yes Im getting my hair done on Thursday (FINALLY!!) I found some pictures of me and Dave..(yucky!!) and I took a lighter lit them on fire and threw them out my bedroom window lol

ugh..i dont wanna wake up and go to school tommorrow..wait yes I do cuz then after school I can see Wes..and thats always a good thing i havent hung out with him since Friday and that was like poor cuz I only saw him for like 2 hours..GAY

I ate pizza it was yummy..I love pizza!!

Im getting kinda cold sitting in this basement..so i think Im heading out..

PeAcE* ~*yeAA BitcheZZZ*~

I fuckin hate everyone...

Sun, 07 Nov 2004 22:14:20 GMT

Well today ahs to be the most shittiest day of my life..

I worked from 10:00-2:00 and it was sooo slow and boring and i had a tummy ache the entire time..

I come home and talk to my Wes..he goes to work..and I go online

Ok..Im like talking to scott and Jimmy and there all freaking out..and there both like fighting with eachother..

Scotts telling me all this shit about Wes and I dont even kno, what to believe..im so fuckin confused..I dont think its true..but why would people be saying this shit..i hate shit talkers..and i hate how people have to go and fuck around with shit..

What is this!?!..I do believe this.. i am crying..this is different..I dont cry..hmm..when was the last time I cried...lets see..um...I think it was..when I was.. when me and dave broke up..wow..thats a mighty long time ago..anyways..

Jimmy's freaking out..cuz of scott

Scott absolutley hates wes with a endying passion...NICE!..I was told stories..they dont seem to make any sense to me..and how would..UGH!! ~CoNfUsIoN~

I kinda wanna find out..why people are saying this to me...UGH!!!...I fuckin hate everyone..people need to grow the fuck up!!!!!!!!!!!!!i hate how everytime I gets a new boyfriend...the world tries to make my life as miserable as possible..congratulations world...you have officialy made my life..as miserable as it can possibly be right now..THANK YOU!

Going to do something..

~I HATE YOU~

Sitting in the library once more

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 16:06:37 GMT

Hey..yup in the library

Im having problems again..my heart is being all gay..and the chest pains are coming back..My heart keeps beating really fast too. I dont like this..it freaks me out..And I dont think it is what my doctor said it was..and I have a feeling this is happening cuz of my heart murmur...I dont really know what to do..and I dont wanna call my mum and go home cuz I cant put up with her..and I really cant miss anymore school.

Anyways on a lighter note..

Im so very very bored..3 and a half hours until I can go home..and sit..and then go to work.

Ugh..they turned the heat on in shop for the first time this year today and they didnt clean the dust off so it smells like buring dog food in the room. Plus we get the disgusting scent of culinary so its ten times worse. You like cant even breathe in there cuz its so hot, let alone the smell.

I had this really odd dream last night..I went to the movie theatre and I saw my ex-b/f Stephen and he had a pet monkey and he gave it to me. It was very weird..I wanna go home and look at my dream dictionary now and figure what the hell thats all about.

So.. Its really quiet in here..*Im like alone in this computer part of the library because I came up here with Jamie and Shauna and there like on the other end of the room doing work in silence. Im really excited for tommorrow..FIELD TRIP TO THE OLD PEOPLE HOME!!! ha ha.. And ya wanna know something..me and Dianna get stuck with the two "problem" patients Woo-HOO! ::sArCaSm::

I dont really have much to talk about..well I could probably write some shit down..but the thing that sucks about this..is how everyone can read it so its not that private lol.

I think Im gonna go..just for the fact that Im bored..and I would much rather look at stuff than use the small amount of energy I have to type..

~*PeAcE*~

Another entry from the cracked out girl...

Tue, 02 Nov 2004 22:17:16 GMT

hey hey hey!

yuppp today our country is choosing a new idiot leader...I swear to god if John Kerry wins..he will be assassinated because that guy is the biggest fuckin idiot...

i found maggots in the corn at school today...thank god I didnt eat it..and I have first lunch..I find it amusing that they still served it up to fourth lunch...even after John Dill went up to lunch lady and showed her the maggots found in the food. I think i should say I got sick and go to the dean's office and threaten to sue..It's a way to miss class..well actully Im in shop but it's not like we ever do anything in there anyways.

I have one hour until i have to be a slave for market basket. Thats not too bad cuz around 6 it gets slow anyways..so that means I get to do nothing!! And I get paid for it yay!!! THEN...my mom is gonna give my b/f a ride home from his work so I'll get to see him for a total of lets see...about..15 minutes tops. FUN...::sarcasm::

What can i say..I like rough and kinky..

Welcome to a new kind of tension
All across the alien nation..
Sorry I was just singing Green Day..silly me..There very odd..ok Im changing the song now..

My eyes are ssoooooo itchy..it sucks..

~*yeAA bitcheZ*~

I love Westley jordan
09*16*04

sittin in the library at school

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 14:48:46 GMT

yupp...here I am at school..in the library surrounded by Lauren, John Dill and Ricky fun fun fun..I wants to go home..well not my home cuz Im going over Wes's home today..so technically I wanna go to his home. And Im gonna rape him :-)

Yup..I was just thinkin and its been six months..since..well..do you really wanna know?

Im so0o0o0o bored...

Thinking about that 5 page essay thats due for Ms.Hamel's class..not looking forward to doing that. Im just gonna do it all day in class and then type it later.

I have to write a note to the b/f figure..cuz he wrote me one..

Im still not used to the time change...I feel so refreshed because of that extra hour..its different.

Im kinda hungary..but Im not really looking forward to lunch..Im paranoid about the food we eat..I think I might be ammune to food poisoning though.

So how about that...
~*yeAA bitcheZ*~

Halloweeeeeennnnn

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 00:08:47 GMT

yay! Its halloween! But Haverhill is gay..and all the little trick or treaters came yesterday..fuckin Haverhill..they like dont get the holidays right..

Ugh..Today was so fucked..I woke up and like had a great morning..and then my parental units woke up and they started bitching at me for absolutley NOTHING! Meanwhile I was on the phone with Wes so he had to go through the stupid shit with me..and then I got kicked off the phone..and the vacum caught fire..but ya kno..thats my fault too..I hate parents...there so fucked..

I went to the mall with Jimmy,Scooter, and Tom..that was interesting..espically since we were there all day yesterday..where like mall rats or something..or just ppl with no lives..yea so anyways at that mall today..there were little kids trick or treating at the stores..and I finally understand why they do that..cuz its for all the parents who are lazy and dont wanna go outside to do it...so they can go shopping while there kids get candy..either that.. or they want there kids to get extra candy to be fat..

Yea..beware of the old ladies..I was at mall today..(well i think u knew that..) And I had on a teeny little skirt and this old lady was checking me out..and it was so obvious too..I turned around to tell scooter and he's like yup..i saw that.. ha ha ha..even little ladies at the mall arent safe anymore..

Yup and then we drove around and stole massive magnets..ha ha..we gots so many more now..and soon the Jimmah mobile will be covered..ha ha good times..

I miss my Wes..he's locked in Shaws till about 9 something rather..we went to go see him..and well he looked rather fustrated..But first days at work always suck..so I understand..

Went to Market basket like 3 times today..and saw my bestest friend Jeff ha ha..he's so...well..I cant think of a word..um...well he's Jeff it's pretty self explanatory..(for those who know him)

It was pretty dam funny someone commented on one of my entries..about how I wrote about Matt..and he called me a bitch..how funny..its a shame.. I dont give a fuck! If Matt is that immature to not talk to me because of who Im going out with..well thats pretty low..That just needs suicide right there..

Alright..Ive decided...Im gonna be nice to everyone..even if I dont like them..Cuz Im not gonna be a immature bitch..so Im gonna be nice for now on..

Im gonna bizounce..cuz this writing is getting old and boring..And I gots a tummy ache..(And I failed at being ghetto..ha ha oh well)
I love WeS!!! 09*16*04

~*yeAA bitcheZ*~

boredom..

Tue, 26 Oct 2004 23:45:30 GMT

yupp...Im bored..so Im finally online..and Im finally updating this stupid thing...
wow..shop week is over and tommorrow I have to go back to friggin idiot classweek..::kills myself::..
ya Kno I really dont understand market basket people..one minute they hate you the next minute there offering to give you rides home..Im telling you..everyone who works there does some heavy drugs..its pretty dam fucked up..
I really wish Wes was online so I can have kinky cyber sex with him again..ha ha...but nooooo his computer is GAY! Its quite bothersome..
I cant wait until Friday..I get to get my hair colored and cut..so now I wont look like a friggin idiot with the color all growing out of my hair..and it wont be ugly nemore..Im excited!
Im really scared..I have this major fetish with this Phish song..I hope im not going crazy like Matt..ha ha the day i actully talk to him..he doesnt even aknowledge me..odd..I think he wants to kill himself..cuz he is all sorts of sad..or so I have heard..well if he dies..then he wont be able to go to nemore Phish concerts..o wait the broke up neways..hmm... oh.well..WHO CARES!
Yea today at lunch Health Occ. vs. Cosmo..that was some funny shit..and of course Health Occ..kicked ass right there..yea where the cool kids with the purple uniforms..
Me and Jackie are going to propose a letter to my mom..cuz were like friends again..and we were only fighting cuz of dave..and no one cares about him..because he is a queer fuck who takes it up the ass.. and me and jackie are so much more mature..than we were before this summer...so we can def. handle are on problems.
Hmmm..what else can I write about...Gavin Jaffarian is a fucked up kid who needs to leave me the fuck alone..
Jeff is still in love with me..:::CREEPY:: ha ha
I think Val was talking shit to Ricky...but I will never kno the truth..because everyone is so fucked up at school...
Im gonna bizounce..ha ha
~*yeAA BitcheZ*~

My life....

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 00:33:15 GMT

wow..this day completley sucked..Im so sick of school and its only october wow..And Im really sick of hearing that emma girl talking shit about me..she better watch the fuck out..Im ready to just fuckin hit her..and knock that ugly look off her fat fuckin face.Well enough anger..
Market Basket..god I have def. had enough of that place..Jeff is still in my face..Im not sure if that is good or not..
Jackie is all trying to be back..I dont know how I should like react to this..best friends for 10 yrs..then the dave shit..so much confusion..she wants to like talk my mom and be like dont hate me...Idk..Its so fucked..
I also think Matt still has this grudge going on against me..I cant tell tho..I wish ppl werent so odd sometimes..because..well you probably get the point.
Boyfriend situation..is still going good..Its gonna be one month on saturday!!! YAY!!! Im so excited!!
Im trying to get Ricky to take me to prom..interesting scenario we got going there..
THE END

I love pain...

Sun, 10 Oct 2004 02:14:58 GMT

omg..I hate work..thats it..im going to quit!!!...j/k! I cant cuz then Ill be poor :-( All these friggin idiot market basket ppl..there all crazy..and theres like petafile ppl there who wanna fuck me..and thats rly creepy..omg..this guy came in to work today..and he's like 65 and he comes in all the time..and he's like the local neighborhood petafile..and he gave me flowers..what the fuck..who does that?? Alright heres a list of 5 reasons why i wanna quit my job...
1. Petafiles
2. I work way too much
3. Friggin Idiots
4. I cant understand the ones who dont speak english
5. i cant reach anything!!!!
Those r some pretty dam good reasons...but I dont wanna quit and be poor...decisions..I hate them..

On a lighter note...Im going to kill myself...just kiddin!..Im at wes's home..and Im going to steal all those stupid fuckin "support our troop" magenets off everyones car and put them all over jimmy's blazer..thats my new goal in life..

THE END

ha ha I made a l/j!!!

Sat, 09 Oct 2004 17:22:29 GMT

ha ha...I finally succeeded at makin one of these things lol..now I can be cool like everyone else!! yay.. Im just sitting around the "boyfriends" home..ha ha..then off to market basket..yay ::sarcasm::..I hate work...